Living in my Husband's Weight Loss Shadow

When we moved to Vegas, my husband was landlocked with no ocean in sight.  Two years went by and he gained several pounds and wasn't happy.  I always felt superior to him with my sleek body.  When my husband took up StandUp Paddleboarding, he lost 4 pants sizes.  His weight loss overshadowed any muscle gain that I might have acquired over the last 6 months.  He is alway flexing and showing off.  I feel guilty when I look at myself in the mirror knowing that I too should lose some weight so that I look his equal.  Even when I competed in my first bikini competition, I never boasted about my accomplishment.  I didn't parade or showcased my accomplishment.  This isn't true for my husband.  I know he is happy with his body, I am happy for him but I just don't like how he makes me feel about myself.  I know he dosn't mean it and maybe I am sensitive because I know that I could lose some weight.  I am just happy with my lifestyle.  It truly goes back to the lack of body confidence.  It has been my dark horse for years.  I do not want my daughter nor my son to grow up with this dreaded feeling.  I am lucky that this lack of confidence isn't all consuming but it does make me feel inadequate at times.